..Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will but yours be done.-Luke 22:42
God just revealed to me that I have been disobedient by not accepting his will for my life. Let me explain:
I moved from Houston to Austin in March for a new job. Needless to say, Austin has been a disappointment and I have often whined via blog about it. I have been praying that I get to resign my position and go back to better pastures in Houston.
I immediately began to apply for positions and praying earnestly about moving back to Houston when my lease is over in February. I called my prayers and job applying as having faith. Although I have been exercising faith, I have not landed a job in Houston, and It is almost time to submit my notice if I am not going renew my lease. I do not have the funds to just move and wing it. One of the tidbits I got in my revelation is that although Your faith in God can outweigh facts, God sometimes uses facts to show you what his will is. Based on the previously stated facts, it is clear that his will is for me to be in Austin. Instead of accepting that will, I literally ignored God and continue to “operate in faith”. Once God revealed that it is not in His will for me to go back to Houston at this time, my faith turned into something else. When I decided to not immediately transition my prayer into a prayer to help me accept his will, I became rebellious and my acts of faith became a manifestation of that rebellion. Rebellion is synonymous to disobedience.
God will give us the desires of our heart, but our desire is ALWAYS subject to his will. In the flesh, Luke 22:42 shows us that Jesus’s desire was to not to endure the crucifixion. Although that was his desire and he let that desire be known to God, he fully accepted God’s will.
This revelation gives me my marching orders. I must pray to accept God’s will for my life and pray for contentment in this season so I can be obedient to God. Obedience is the key to blessings. I am not allowed to whine and cry because God has me exactly where he wants me. When I accept his will, I am exercising Matthew 6:33 because I am essentially seeking Him.
This hour is an hour to began exercising my obedience. I will make a concerted effort from this moment on.