So a few weeks ago I told you guys that I am not celibate by choice. I have a small update for you:
THIS THING IS A STRUGGLE.
It is not a struggle from having sex with a man…its a masturbation issue. Masturbating was the way I filled in the gaps during long stretches of no intercourse in the past. It would be a way to alleviate boredom as well. Now that I want to discipline myself and abstain from all forms of sex, it is turning out to be a lot harder than I thought.
I will take some of the blame in this. Although I don’t masturbate nearly as much as I used to, I have not tried hard enough to fully discipline myself. To be honest, I really need an accountability partner who is honest and understands. In the mean time I will try to apply myself more.
That’s all I got. Just a little transparency today.