Marching towards Celibacy by Choice

So a few weeks ago I told you guys that I am not celibate by choice.  I have a small update for you: 

THIS THING IS A STRUGGLE.  

It is not a struggle from having sex with a man…its a masturbation issue.    Masturbating was the way I filled in the gaps during long stretches of no intercourse in the past.  It would be a way to alleviate boredom as well.    Now that I want to discipline myself and abstain from all forms of sex,  it is turning out to be a lot harder than I thought.  

I will take some of the blame in this.  Although I don’t masturbate nearly as much as I used to,  I have not tried hard enough to fully discipline myself.   To be honest, I really need an accountability partner who is honest and understands.  In the mean time I will try to apply myself more.

That’s all I got.  Just a little transparency today. 

Be blessed.